Right before bed tonight I said, "Man, God, I really want to blog right now." So, I went to lay down and picked up my book that I'm currently reading called "In Step with God: Understanding His Ways and Plans for Your Life". Ha. Well, first, I started this book because I'm soon ending my chapter of college and have been praying to know what's next with my life. Well, tonight's emphasis was on trusting Him through the tough times. I can honestly say, this last week has SUCKED! Finances, energy down, my knee gives out, my ankle doesn't want to walk, I may have stress fractures in my right foot, my consultant tore me up, my kids aren't listening at school...... you can say that I have not had the best week ever. But at the same time, I have. If you read my last blog, I talked about selling all of my stuff... Well, I've advertised them now, so yeah. But, I realized I was having a difficult time, not getting rid of my stuff, but trusting God with..... EVERYTHING! I mean, I cannot live this life alone. I cannot do this without Him. I am not sure how people do. Life is tough enough, why put yourself through living it alone!
Anyway, this section of the book was talking about God stretching our faith and trust in Him by allowing things in our lives to take place. If we choose not to follow Him, then He lets us do it our way for a while and then we go, "Crap... okay, I need You!" When our whole lives fall apart we need to take a step back and ask ourselves why? Could it be we're doing something right and Satan is attacking us? Or could it be that we are not following God in EVERYTHING and so Satan and the world are seeping in? Satan wants to destroy us no matter what! If we are following what God commands us to, Satan will try and find ways to do that. Well, I've had sexual sin in my past (which I'm now free of for four and a half months, by God's grace!) which Satan used. However, now that I am following God more I have had attacks more now on my integrity, self-esteem, confidence, image (working on this one), future.... you name it. A lot of this stuff are things that I cannot control (meaning Satan has the control over who tries to destroy these). I chose the sexual sin that Satan put in front of me... but I don't choose the people or things that attack me. HOWEVER, I do choose whether or not to allow God to handle it. Well, last Friday I was not letting Him handle anything. I can tell you I was falling a part at the seams. Once I started listening to Him on my long drive home, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I am not trusting God to handle any of it.... I'm trying to handle it on my own. God is in control ALL the time.... He doesn't need us to complete His will. He would LOVE to use us to do so but it's our choice to let Him and listen to Him. I did decide at the beginning of this week that if God wants me to live on the streets and still go to school, then that's what I'm going to do. I must trust that He has my future laid out. I have been guilty of this too, but putting God in a box to fit our standards and life ALWAYS hurt us. Letting God show us our future through Him ALWAYS blesses us. Which one do you want? God gave me the ability to choose this one this week because I let Him in. Are you letting Him in? Are you trusting Him with everything you have and more?
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