becoming the right woman

In the last blog, I mentioned how you (and I) need to be searching after God's own heart in order to be that person that God wants us to be for our future spouses.  I cannot emphasize this enough.  Honestly.  I am learning, slowly, but I am learning to be the kind of person that God desires me to be in Him.  I am becoming the right woman.  In "Your Knight in Shining Armor" by P.B.Wilson, she talks about if we are not changed on the inside according to the ways of God.... you could be staring into the eyes of your future spouse and not even know it because your heart is not in the right place.  THIS SCARES ME!!! You mean, I could have already met my future spouse, but because I my heart was not right with God, I didn't know it?!  This very well could be true.  That does not mean that we will never be with that person, it just means that we're not ready.  But, think about it.  Why would you want to wait to get closer to God?  In general, yeah, having the bonus of marrying our future spouse is going to be phenomenal.  God intends it to be.  But, without God being the center of our lives or our marriage, where do you really think that relationship is going to go?  You could lose your spouse later in life.  Or you could even lose your future spouse before you ever get the chance of living that dream we always think about.  If any of this happens (not saying it will, but I'm positive I am not the only one who has known this to happen), what do you have left?  If you have not been seeking God, then where are you going to turn?  If you have been seeking God, then He can carry you through that time.  HE IS ALWAYS THERE!!!!!! Your future spouse may not always be there.  There will be a time when you are no longer together.  In order for you to know and be able to go through this life as the "right woman" then seek after GOD.  God is the only thing that is constant and becoming the right woman will always start with Him.