peace

These last few months have been a whirlwind to say the least!  I miss writing and I need to put it into my schedule since things have been so crazy.  However, the times when you can settle down and just be able to type (write) everything out can be so peaceful.  Just recently, I had so many spiritual battles going on that I didn't know where to start, what emotion to have, what to think.  It was absolutely insane!  However, I started listening and BELIEVING the "voice" that was telling me that first off, everything is alright and second, that I'm worth everything that God has put into making me!  WHO KNEW?! Ha.  Seriously though.  I've heard that all my life (not be conceited, but I have from family).  I have heard that I am worth everything in the world.  I've been told that I'm beautiful.  I've been told that I am stunning.  I've been told that I have talent.  But you know what?  I HAVE TO BELIEVE THAT!  I've also been told that I'm fat, ugly, useless, worthless, dumb, slow, even things like not a great friend (which is to me far worse than all the others, i need a secret desire for people to like me).  You know, it takes 10 nice things for one bad thing to be erased in our thoughts?!  Seriously, it does.  Now, imagine Satan telling you all of the horrible things about yourself constantly!  And you believing.  Nothing on the Earth can take that pain away.  However, GOD can!  God took that pain away and seriously ever since then, I've been on cloud nine!  My life is soaring with business, my spirit is healthier, i actually get things done because I'm not listening to all that, i'm sorry, bull crap!

I feel completely and irrevocably at peace with where I am supposed to be right now!  God has blessed me in more ways than I can count.  I SO want to give that back to people!  I want them to know that feeling because there's nothing like it!  What are you going through?  Are you going through something that you just cannot tell anyone?  Or you've told someone but they just don't seem to care?  Seriously!  What are you going through?  If you need someone to talk to, just to listen and if you want me to give advice or I can even just reassure you that I'm here to listen.  Then please let me know!  You can email me at lmallen86@yahoo.com or find me on facebook at www.facebook.com/lindsay.allen5.  Please let me pray for you!