our life can have meaning

"If our life and death do not show the worth and wonder of Jesus, they are wasted."  Sitting here thinking about this statement has definitely hit home.  There are so many things in my life I am not proud of.  There are also many things in my life that other people have seen that would make them question whether or not I believe in God.  This hurts to think this about myself.  But, in reality has my life really reflected the "worth and wonder of Jesus"?  On the outside, yeah, maybe.  There are certain things that I strive to do not only because I love to do them, but because I know it brings glory to God.  But, my question is what really brings glory to God?  The fact that I act out what I think God wants or is it what I know He wants and act on it WITH ALL MY HEART?  I fear in my life that I will not be remembered for the person that Jesus is.  This has been one of my greatest fears since the moment I found out a friend of mine passed away in high school.  Her life was fully and completely devoted to God.  But, what about me?  Can people look at me that way?  I know that as I ponder on this question that John Piper proposes, I can have that kind of life.  I can be that person that others can see and notice that there is something there and they want to know what that is.  I know I can be the person that people see Jesus in.  Logically I know this.  But, I am sure that you have also had that feeling of "I know it, but do I believe it." 

A friend of mine recently witnessed to a complete stranger.  She asked this stranger if he had ever heard the story of Jesus.  This guy said he believed in Jesus.  However, my friend went further in asking, "You can believe in Jesus but do you have a personal relationship with Him?"  The stranger was confused and my friend went on to use the analogy of "You saw me and you believed I was there but you had no idea who I was.  Now we have a relationship.  Before you could not say that we had a relationship."  You could say, I believe that I can be the person Jesus wants me to be.  But, I need to believe in the relationship with Him that this will happen.  I need to give it to Him and allow Him to use me.  I always need to seek that relationship with Him.  So, yes, my life can have meaning when I pass on because I was able to live for Christ?  How about you?