falling in love with God

I want to wake up every day wanting to talk to God.  I want to be in the kind of relationship with Him that I cannot wait to open my heart and mind to Him.  I have a long way to go but after reading song of Solomon again, I'm beginning to understand the intimacy that God desires to have with me.  I remember having glimpses of intimacy that I long to have with Him.  Song of Solomon shows me that you cannot force love to come along.  When it's ready for us and we're ready for it, we will find it.  That makes total sense to me now with what I have been going through the past week.  The only love affair I need to be having right now is one with God that will last forever.  I believe I'm ready to allow God to take that part of my life now.  I want what we had again, desperately.  I pray I do this soon because I need it and I really do want it.

Song of Solomon 1:15 - How beautiful you are, my darling! Oh, how beautiful!  Your eyes are doves!
Song of Solomon 2: 7 - Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.

After reading these two passages, I was relieved knowing this is how my God feels about me.  I am a beautiful person and he wants me to know this.  He wants me to long for him with more breathtaking experiences then I can possibly dream of.  He wants me to experience that longing for love and a relationship with Him.  If I cannot do that then I do not deserve to be with anyone.  Honestly, if I cannot allow God to be the center of my love life and my whole life, then there is no hope for me finding my future husband.  This is where the second verse comes in.  I should not be searching for love in hopes that I find it.  I need to be patient and wait for God to give what He wants to give me on His own timing.  Why should I rush God's timing?  His timing is everything.  His timing is perfect.