is security safe or harmful?

Most people think security is something that keeps them safe and out of harm's way.  I mean, I think that is what security means to me.  It's comfortable and warming to know that security is on my side.  I mean, I always go home to my family for safety and security.  It feels right.  But, what about allowing your security to be a crutch?  There are too many times when something feels uncomfortable to us that does not allow us to take the leap of faith that God is taking care of us.  For crying out loud, my aunt and uncle were missionaries in Turkey for 34 years.  HA.  I could never imagine putting myself in a situation like that.  My cousins now worry about their kids in the schools over there on whether or not the school is going to be bombed.  My uncle was thrown in prison for his missions work so many times that he lost count.  Could I do that?  Could I be like Paul and allow myself to be in a situation where security was not an option but far from it?  Paul knew when he went into different countries to teach that he was going to be thrown in prison.  He just didn't know who was going to do it or when or how long he had before they did.  I mean, that is dedication but ultimately that is faith at its best.  I have had a tugging on my heart to not be a teacher.  HA.  I have been in school for 5 years, working on my 6th to NOT teach?  For real?  But, on the upside, I have had that tugging on my heart to use my education background to go teach kids in the mission field.  As I sit here and write this, I feel peace on my heart that this is what my life has been about.  I have been put through this schooling process to teach kids..... but not in a school.  Oh, now I'm excited!!!  I of course have no idea where this is going to lead me but I know it's somewhere good if God is leading it.  But, is it going to be safe?  Is it going to be secure?  Maybe not.  But, with God leading it I know I am in the security of His hands and I know everything will be okay.  So how secure are you?  Are you able to live your life the way God wants you to or are you too afraid to let Him?