unforgiving people

If you read the title you may be thinking I am going to be talking about unforgiving people and how horrible they are and that I don't like them.  Well, have you ever thought that maybe I am an unforgiving person or what about you?  God commands us to forgive even when we don't want to.  In fact, last night at Vespers there was a couple that was interviewed about forgiveness.  I can tell you that they are one of the prime example of what forgiveness is all about.  They had built up a very wealthy business and were able to sell that business for 1.4 million dollars.  Yeah, I say that was pretty successful.  Well, they were doing well for about a year and a half and then the new owner of their business told them that there was no more money.  How could there be no more money after only a year and half?  Well, the couple went through legal issues to try and get the rest of their money.  However, it was not bringing them any closer to comfort or happiness.  So, they looked to God for guidance.  They figured out that God wanted them to forgive the new owners of their debts and not accept another dime from him.  Uh... excuse me?  Okay, I have people who still ask me for money from something that I was not able to pay them back (however, they knew that this was going to happen because before they lent the money to me I told them this) and recently all these people that I owe and not even a fraction of what this poor couple needed to be paid, they refuse to forgive me for not paying them back when they needed the money.  You have to understand that there are numerous things that kept me from being able to give this money to those people.  Family issues is more important to me and I needed to tend to that first.  This sounds like a pity party but it's really not.  It just shows the kind of people that we need to be instead of the kind of people that we loathe.  God does not want unforgiving people working "for" Him because He wants us to be able to love and lead those people to Him.  How can we do this if we are mad at them or hold a grudge over their heads.  You really think this is going to help anything?  Absolutely not.  So instead of being upset with these people that apparently need their money now, I am trying to scrape my pennies and sell my possessions in order to rid me of debt and clouds that are hanging over my head.  This way, I am able to also show those people that they do matter and God loves them.  I know this is a weird way of showing God's love to someone but following through with commitments is actually one of those things that you can show others and it be in a God-loving way.  So, are you one of those unforgiving people or are you one of those people that others can see God's love in by the way you forgive them?