risk

First off, I'm sorry I have not written in forever.  I have no excuse.  I just didn't.  Now, I remember why I need to.  For my spiritual life to succeed, I need to be in God's word.  HA.  Yeah, I know.  Big revelation, right?  However, I didn't realize how these blogs helped me do that until this week.  So, back to blogging five times a day if I have things to talk about.  So here goes:

Okay, so loving God is risky, right?  It is risky all the time.  You cannot tell me those who have ended up in jail (my uncle) because they have loved Christ is not risky.  However, loving Christ is what we should be doing.  So in a way, you could say living life is risky.  Are we not supposed to live our lives for Christ?  Living for Christ is loving Christ and loving Christ is risky.  So living life = risky.  But, if you look at the other side of the spectrum, living without Christ is also risky.  However, this kind of risk is not the brightest idea ever.  Would you jump out of an airplane without a parachute?  Didn't think so.  So, why would we live our lives without Christ in it?  I have found this past week that my living without Christ brings me great discomfort, pain, disappointment, anger, pride, resentment, bitterness, bad decision making (which we can all relate to), and a loveless life.  Why in the world would I ever want any of this surrounding me?  Why in the world would I choose to live that life instead of one where Love surrounds you all the time and living for Christ brings the greatest joy anyone can ever feel?  I have chosen to put things in my way of living for Christ.  Not just materialistic things, but sleep.  Sounds dumb I know.  I thought I had a revelation last week about doing stuff for God all the time because I cannot understand why I wouldn't in the first place.  However, understanding and doing are two completely different things.  I understood what I needed to do, so what did I do?  I ignored them.  The worst decision I could make.  I have never been happier these last few months than I have ever been in my whole life.  But, this last week has been a spiritual battle.  I just was not listening to what I needed to be listening to.  Now, it's time to change that.  I don't mean just saying it but I really mean doing it.  It's time to take a risk.