Jesus dying for us

Today I was consumed by the the presence of God.  I was asked to sing in church by two good friends of mine and we started singing "How Great Thou Art" and the message in this hymn hit me.  I was overwhelmed by the image of Jesus, our Savior, up on the cross with all of my baggage and turmoil on His shoulders.  I got extremely emotional. 

However, hours later I was talking to another friend of mine on how much Christ loves us that He would die for us.  And she had given the analogy of a friend dying for someone else if a gun was pointed at them.  I liked the analogy but then I went a bit further in saying that not only did He jump in front of the bullet for us..... but He jumped in front of the bullet 6+ billion times!  AND THEN, He jumped in front of the bullet 6+ billion times multiplied by the amount of sin each of us carry around.  Huh..... Could you do that for a friend?  Someone you loved?  Could you jump in front of a bullet for them EVERY TIME they sinned against you with no questions asked?  Could you? 

Jesus WILLINGLY died each and every time we do something against Him.  That's why He died.  To rescue us from those sins.  The burden you feel from a sin you have committed in any way, imagine your sin, upon all your other sins, upon 6+ billion people's sins multiplied by their sins.... the burden that you feel is NOTHING compared to how He must have felt holding all of those upon Himself.  AND THEN, He prayed for us and asked God to forgive us for KILLING JESUS!  I don't want to kill my Savior anymore!  I know that I will sin, logically, but I really don't want to!  I drove the nail through His feet, the nails through His wrists, the thorns on His head, the lashings He received, the blood dripping down His body to form a pool under Him, I made Him carry that cross to Calvary, I made Him cry out FOR ME!! I made Him do ALL of that!  I DID THAT!  Those mocking Him as they watched Him dying.... that was me.  I was there.  I killed Him.  I sit here with tears forming in my eyes...... I should be the one to die.  I should be the one to be crucified for what I have done to Him.  The wager for Sin IS DEATH!  It is!  It was and will always be death.  I do NOT deserve the grace, love, compassion, mercy that God shows me.  HE GIVES IT TO ME!  Do you show grace, love, compassion, mercy to those around you?  Do you show them who Jesus really is?  Or do you get frustrated with the slow driver?  Or the cashier who is taking her sweet time?  Or the people who curse you, hate you, scorn you because you walked in the wrong direction at the wrong time?  What do you do with those people?  What they do to you and me will NEVER compare to what we did and do to Jesus when we choose the world over Him. 

Could you jump in front of a bullet for Jesus?