learning more and more

Today I have learned so much about Jesus that I don't think I've cried this much in such a long time.  I cry for my sin, His forgiveness, my selfishness, my joy, His overwhelming love, my new found understanding.  I cry because He is who He is.  I have not only learned more about Jesus today then I ever thought possible, but I have learned and feel peaceful about handing my EVERYTHING to Him.  My schooling, my career, my ministry, my love, my life.  It's so amazing the things you can learn when you actually choose to let Jesus do His job.  He cares for me more than I ever thought.  There are not enough emotions and words in this world to convey how much He cares for me.  He does want the best from me and for me.  Logically, I knew this but today, I believed it and want to live it out.  I know there are going to be hard times in my life where my questions will constantly come, but I now know my faith will never be shaken.  There are people in my life, I already know, that are not going to agree with decisions I make.  However, I know I am not making those decisions.  God has already made them, I just have to learn to and take up my cross and follow Him each and every day.  I have more in my life right now than some people will ever see.  I am a selfish person.  I discovered today, I do not want to be that way.  God does not call me to be selfish.  He calls me to serve.  I just cannot wait to see what Journey He has for me.  I am so in love with God right now I want to shout and scream for the all the world to hear.  He is my Savior, my Knight in shining Armor, my Healer, my Best Friend, my Confidant, My King!