love never fails

Love Never Fails - Brandon Heath http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8nQy-aP_Koo

Lately, I have been wrestling with the fact of what true love really is.  Where can you really find it?  Is it hiding from me?  Am I just not looking hard enough?  I recently had a friend who told me the description of what love is.  He used a movie to describe it to me (one of the best ways, by the way, to describe something to me).  Anyway, I had an overwhelming.... i don't know... hurt of some kind but not really.... ache maybe.  God is always with me.  God NEVER fails.  Though I think He may not be listening or there or whatever, He is waiting for His perfect timing.  It's hard going through life without a hand to hold and people constantly telling you that "maybe you're supposed to end up single".  If I believed that, I wouldn't be hurting when I do.  This past week was rough.  Luckily I had a friends to hang with to get my mind off of things, when looking back on it, I should have run to God. 

Today, in church we learned about sins and confessing to not just God but those whom you have wronged.  This is NOT an easy task in the slightest, but I know that peace will flow when things are done right.  So, I am not confessing a sin to you.  I have wronged myself, you and God in filling up my time this past week with nonsense games, talking, noise..... when I should have been still with God.  Logically, I know God never fails.  Sometimes it's hard to live your life without something grabbing your heart to strangle you.  I put on Christian music not 15 minutes ago and this song came up.  Once again, I was emotional because it's true.  Sometimes I need to be reminded of how faithful God is and how much He really loves me, even if no one else does.  So thank You, God for never giving up on me when I totally deserve it.  You deserve more than me but I know You think otherwise.  I love you for that.