willing to die for God?

I have read most of the DC Talk book about martyrs who have given their life in Jesus name.  I have been talking about giving everything up to God.  But the one thing I did not mention was your own life.  I figured this needed a new blog.  But, seriously.  If the time called for it and you were given the choice of living by denying that God exists or dying by proclaiming God's name, which would you choose?  I cannot even answer this question right now.  I wish I didn't have to think about it.  Jesus died for me so that I may have an eternal life through Him.  Now, that sounds like a poor trade off.  He would die for me over 2000 years ago, and obviously, I was not even thought of yet (in my family tree, that is) and He still would sacrifice HIS LIFE for someone who would, maybe, see if they possibly could give something little, maybe, up to God?  I feel I have betrayed my Lord and Savior just by having second thoughts of whether I would give up something small for Him.  I am truly a selfish human being.  I can say that I would love to come to the point in my life where when someone asked me if I believed in Jesus then I could say yes even if there was a possibility that I could die.  This is going to be a long journey but I have taken the first steps, now it's time to ask the question.  Would you die for your Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ?