perfection

Who has ever wanted to be perfect?  If you have answered, no then you're lying to me.  Perfection is the way that our society works.  The model figure.  The perfect complexion.  The perfect answers.  The perfect person.  I have wanted to be this perfect person my whole life.  It is hard because even now, there are people (my family) that sometimes look at me as the perfect child.  I mean for crying out loud, my birthday card said, "To our perfect daughter".  Seriously!! I'm so not perfect.  But, that is what our world wants us to be.  You may look like you have it all together with the right attitude, figure, looks, brains, family, friends, but there is something in you that wants something more for yourself.  I have also struggled with this and am still going through this now.  Eric Ludy explains that in high school he strived to be that perfect man that every woman wants.  With the best voice, walk, look, appearance, and even smell.  He was worried that if he did not get as close to the "Ken doll" look as much as possible then he could never get the right woman.  I'm laughing right now because I totally feel the same way about myself.  I would love to be that skinny girl that everyone calls sexy and beautiful all the time.  I would love to have the brains of my older brother and the talent like my younger brother.  I would love to have the confidence my sister has.  But, I am not them.  I am who God made me and I have to, in a way, live with that.  I have to learn to love me for the way God made me.  I have to be okay with not being the perfect size but more be the perfect daughter for God.  But, that perfection will not be reached until I can praise Him for eternity.  I know this but I can certainly try to be the best person for Him that I can possibly be.  I will have fallbacks but I know He will catch me when I fall.