forgiveness

Today, I learned about forgiveness. Now, I have forgiven people in the past when I knew no one else would. But, today I also learned that we need to be forgivable. Just recently, a friend of mine and I reconciled after a year of hurt and pain. We had discovered that we needed to face our problems head on instead of running from them. However, the first step was to be forgivable. I chose to ask for forgiveness which is one of the hardest things to do in the world. It is extremely hard to apologize to someone that we have hurt or someone that we know we should have been nicer to. Many times this last week, I have had to ask for forgiveness for my anger or my spurts of frustration when I knew I could have controlled both of them and just either let things go or give it up to God and take a deep breath. I am still learning this, though it may be difficult to break old habits, I know that it is healthy for me to learn as well as giving that part of myself to my future husband. This way when we get into arguments, there will not be things thrown around that should have never entered the argument in the first place. It just makes me realize how many things that I do that I should not do and then have to go back and ask for forgiveness. You know, it’s a lot easier to think before we do anything instead of constantly asking for forgiveness when we could have prevented something to start with. So why not, next time take a little time and regroup and blow off steam before talking with anyone so that way, you have a better perspective on the situation and you will be less likely to blow up at someone. I am going to take this challenge and try and apply it to my life and I challenge you to do the same.