building God into our life or building our lives around Him?

This is one question I have been asking myself for years.  I have a hard time building my life around God but instead I have built Him into my life when it was convenient for me.  In truth, being a Christian is not convenient but it's so worth the sacrifice.  I have built God into my life for years.  But, I believe I am ready to let Him just have my life and I build my life around Him.  I would so much like this right now.  There are so many people who say that they have built their lives around God but only do the minimum to say that they are spiritually there.  I can say that I used to to devotionals and pray and go to church and youth group.  But, this was all expected of me and I was seen not just by my friends but by my family as an amazing Christian girl.  However, what was going on on the inside was far from it.  I would go to these places and try to fit God into my life everyday but I was not learning anything that He was trying to tell me.  It is so much easier to say that you are doing something and not do it internally then it is to do actually let God take over.  I still see people ny age who do exactly what I did in junior high and high school and up until a few days ago.  I always thought I needed something to direct what I was learning about God so I had a structure.  But God is not about teaching you the standard way all the time.  He wants you to learn about Him and get to know Him sometimes through the strangest ways.  But, if that is the way that you are going to hear Him, then He will do it the way He sees it for you.  So, my question for you is are you building God into your life or are you building your life around God?  Which is the most rewarding you will ever have?  So, which will be your choice?  I say start now.